Clutch

All of us posed together

And we stood grinning side by side

Your arm over my shoulders

My arm behind your back.

And... did I clutch, with my whole fist, a clump of your shirt?

I think I did, I remember with a smile :)

The camera sure didn't capture that,

Except maybe in my eyes.

And in that clutch I held my heart that ached for you

And all the words that couldn't somehow unjumble enough

To tell you

How much I loved being with you

That every smile you bestowed on me was a gift

That every one of our conversations was a lifeline. 

Did you probably read all of that, and still decide to toy on?

I'd like to believe so,

To comfort my sorry heart 

In your vilification.

I'm so glad the age of quick pictures

Had arrived when we met

I have a memory of that picture of yore, of that moment ephemeral 

When all of us posed together

And we stood grinning side by side

Your arm over my shoulders

My arm behind your back.